bloodresisting

[Private to family and David]

It has been a strange few nights, I feel myself slipping into the monster I was born as. I am afraid of what could happen, really what will happen. I’ve never felt this for anyone else, it hurts me so to say but it would be for the better not to see him again. I can not risk this perfection to my deadly desires. The conflict with in me is very hard to deal with, my compassion tells me to run and save him from myself. But on the other hand every other part of my person wants to stay and be with him, for both reasons. I do not know if I can stand to be around him for much longer. It has only been two nights and I feel the edge of this cliff is quite close to me, I may fall any second.

I think it would be better if I stayed away from him, but I can not do that.

[Private to family]

I fear for our safety here, I have come close to showing us for what we are. I think it would be better to leave but…I do not think we can. We’re all happy here but it is dangerous and we need to be on the look out, we need to be more careful. And another thing, I haven’t seen any of you lately. Edward, I haven’t seen you or Jasper since the last meeting when he was turning. Alice, I don’t remember the last time we have talked. And Adaley as well.

[End]

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